It makes me sad that today’s society functions in such a way that I feel nervous being home by myself when two guys come to install a new front door.
The thought of being in the house with these two guys I don’t know has been freaking me out to the point that I pretty much told a friend of mine I would be IM’ing her while they were here in case they tried to attack me or something.
To be honest, the likelihood of something like that happening is not high, but it COULD happen. I mean, they work for a reputable company so I assume they have had background checks and all that. But, the possibility is there so that’s all I’ve been able to think about.
And I kind of hate myself a little bit for being nervous, because I’m treating these (so far perfectly nice and professional) men like criminals. Or potential criminals, anyway.
But, and this conversation has been had so many times recently because of the cases making the news, our society teaches women to do what they can to not be attacked. So, here I am sitting in the comfort of my own home trying to take precautions against something bad happening to me. Instead of being able to trust that the strangers I’ve met have been taught that it’s just wrong to attack someone.
The more I write about this, the more ashamed I am about having these feelings and thoughts. And that’s just another sign of what’s wrong! I shouldn’t be ashamed of wanting to protect myself. But, as a female, I’m supposed to be nice to everyone and welcoming to people.
Ugh, I don’t even know where I’m going with this. Nowhere I guess. It’s a frustrating sign of the way society currently functions. But, I will be online with my friend until they leave, just in case.